Rabu, 11 Agustus 2010
tanda tanda ramadhan sudah didepan mata
jadi begini... sekitar seminggu yang lalu gue mendengarkan siaran radio di mobil waktu perjalanan ke sekolah. yang siaraan ari untung (a) sama bedu (b) . tau kan? ada percakapan yang kira-kira seperti ini :
( oiya, omongannya emang rada gak bener. tapi gue sih ambil lucunya aja)
b : eh, lo tau gak apaan tandanya bentar lagi puasa?
a : apa ya?? ehmm ini.. banyak yang kirim sms minta maaf.
b : salaah..
a : apaan dong?
b : tandanya di TV banyak iklan sirup.
a : hiyaak
b : ehh.. ada lagi. diakhir iklan ada ucapan selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa.
a : oh.. iyaiya. Kami dari sarung gajah jongkok mengucapkan..
b : hahahaha. kami dari k****m dua rasa mengucapkan
a : eh eh.. rasa apa nih?
b : ketan ama kacang wijen.
??????
Minggu, 08 Agustus 2010
against abortion
Hi Mommy!Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?
You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?
I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.
…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.If you’re against abortion, reblog!
happy birthday hamnah..
disini aja ye..
"happy birthday HAMNAH!!"
Sabtu, 07 Agustus 2010
huaalaahhh
Gramedia central park grand opening, yang artinya ada diskon, sampe tanggal 8 agustus dan gue baru tau hari ini, dan gak ada kemungkinan akan kesana!! sebel abissszzz..(lebay ah)
NB: sekarang saya sedang berusaha menenangkan diri dan ambil positifnya. karena kalaupun saya tau dari kemaren kemaren saya gak bakal boleh kesana karena alasan yang sangat klasik " sudah kelas 9 harus belajar".
Jumat, 30 Juli 2010
count 1, 2, 3,...
one heartbreak.
two eyes crying.
three words never said again.
four hands that never held again.
five morning you'll pass him in the hall.
six love notes, ripped and torn.
seven days a week you'll think of him.
eight sad song at night before bed.
nine wishes that never came true.
ten years before he realized it has...
always been you
Kamis, 29 Juli 2010
lo tau inten kan??
gue: ami... gue bosen dengerin lo ngomong BTA mulu. kenapa sih??
ami: soalnya abis ini gue BTA lin.
gue: ya tapikan bosen.
ami: ya udah gue gak ngomongin BTA lagi. gini aja. lo tau inten ( nama tempat bimbel sejenis BTA) gak? itu loh yang depannya "I"
gue: ooh.. iya iya gue tau. yang huruf keduanya "N" kan??
amy: iya iya. bener banget tuh yang huruf terakhirnya "N" juga itu looh..
gue: iya iya. beneeer banget . "N"nya dua gitu kan keren banget gak siih??
amy: iya.. kok lo tau sih. keren banget kan..
tiba tiba percakapan berakhir gitu aja
beberapa menit kemudian..
amy: lin.. lo tau inten gak?
lina: tau tau.. pasti tau dooong. yang keren banget itu kan? yang huruf ketiganya "T"?
amy: iya iya. keren banget sumpah. masa "N"nya dua gitu lin.. parah. keren abis.
lina: setuju bangeet gue my.. kok lo tau siih?
amy: ya iya dong. itu kan keren banget. dia kayak bisa nampung banyak orang gitukan? padahal dia kayak manusia gitu..
lina: loh... bukan tauuu.. dia tuh lebih keren lagi. dia tuh gabungan huruf i-n-t-e-n.
amy: masa sih?
lina: iya!
amy: sumpah keren abisszz
tiba tiba berenti lagi
beberapa menit kemudian
lina: mi.. lo tau inten gak?
amy: hah? yang mana?
lina: aduuh.. maso lo gak tau siih. itu loh yang huruf pertamanya "I".
amy: oooh.. itu mah gue tau bangeet kalii..
lina: iya.. masa lo sempet lupa siih..
amy: yaa.. abiskan gue pikir yang orang itu looh.. kan banyak yang namanya mirip.
lina: yaah my. yang ini kan jauh lebih keren. pake "E" loh my.. bukan "A".
amy: iya-iya.. sekarang sih gue inget banget.
tiba-tiba berenti dan terulang terus sampe hari ini.
